Today was a sad day.
Today I watched my Grandmother take her last breath.
I have never watched anyone die before.
I hope I never have to do it again.
Don't get me wrong, I am super thankful that I have been able to be here and have this time...
I just don't think I want to watch someone die again.
It is pretty emotional when you realize that life as you know it will never be the same again.
I wonder if my kids are going to be traumatized. Sam was playing her favorite piano pieces as she breathed her last... the others were in the other room playing the wii... but they all knew.
The crazy thing is that she almost held on until December 30th which is the same day that her husband, my grandfather passed away. I wonder if she was holding out for that all along.
December 5th was the day she started feeling badly... and 3 weeks and 4 days later she is gone.
Last Friday she asked to go outside, so my cousin lifted her from the bed and we got her in the sun for 30 minutes... I snapped this photo with Emma.
On Sunday I captured this one...
The rest of the time she was here...
Sam & Kirsten read her scriptures...
I could go on and on... and I think when I get home I will do a post to Grandma as a testament to her and her amazing life. But tonight, too much grief & emotion. One second I am fine the next I am crying. All I know is this life is precious and most people don't have the chance to live it as fully as my Grandma did. She loved God above all else and her family was a close second.
I miss her already.
2 comments:
It is hard to watch someone fade away. I have never been there when a loved one has died, not sure if I could do it. I still have 3 out of the 4 grandparents. Hopefully life will settle back in for you. I like the pictures.
Your blog is wonderful, Suzanne. It's been quite awhile since I've been knocking on your door over here, but glad I stopped by this evening. You are very brave for being so open about what you went through - even taking a few pictures - something I was not capable of doing at the time.
Your grandma WAS an amazing woman as my dad was an extraordinary man. Our lives are definitely poorer without them in it. I can't wait til we finally make it "home". Won't it be a beautiful reunion?!
Anyway, just stopping by to say "hi" and once again feeling thankful for the amazing, creative, loving friend that you are.
Wishing you a 2012 full of daring adventures and lives changed for the better,
april
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