Today's Motto...

For those who know me...

I tend to suffer from anxiety from time to time.
(some of you are laughing right now... as this is a mild understatement!)

It is much better in the last couple of years but certain things tend to push me over the edge...

Things like this...

"Our neighbors house is for sale, they get 3 offers on it after 6 months, and unbelievably the people who get the offer are members at our church AND their son is in Emma's class." 

I am beyond thrilled... for a moment.

Because yesterday I learn that the offer fell through, there is 6 inches of standing water under the house, insulation hanging in the water, a shop and addition to the home that were not permitted through the county...  who knows who our neighbors will be now... I am hoping not the psycho blue honda dude.

AND

That leads me to panic about my own home.

Even though when we purchased our home we had basically the same problem...

but we had the water pumped out and a permanent sump pump installed... and every time I obsess about this I lift up the two crawl space doors and see nothing but dry. (Praise God!) But I still think we are sinking... see what the mind can do people?  It is NOT reality.

But why does my heart still race and why to I think the roof will collapse on top of me?

In other anxiety news...

This fall my baby goes to school, Sam heads to academy :( and I need a real job... (not subbing) that can cover the 5 kids tuition.  I wonder what will that job be?  Please join me in praying for the right job & the amount we need to cover the kids tuition. :)

One of our heat pumps is no longer functioning.  The good news is it is fixable (and I am focusing on being thankful for this!) and that instead of $5000- $7000 for a new unit... it will be just under $1000.  In the meantime we have just not been using the unit and seem to be okay.  
Thankful for the mild winter we are having.

So you see I have issues.  Not serious life threatening issues... but issues that when I let my mind wander I worry about things that don't really matter.

Thus my attempted focus on "Eucharisteo"
focusing on 1000 gifts...  giving thanks for the little things I take for granted.

Did you know that if you are focusing on being thankful it is nearly impossible to feel anxiety or sorry for yourself?  Weird, but totally works I am telling you.  Even when stuff happens that is hard to be thankful for... if you give thanks your heart is changed.

Anyway... my motto really is

GIVE THANKS.  KEEP CALM and CARRY ON.

God is good ALL the time.

Have a fabulously sunny day!